UNDO

I've been here before, now here I am again. Standing at the door, praying You'll let me back in. To label me a prodigal would be only scratching the surface of who I've been known to be. Turn me around, pick me up. Undo what I've become. Bring me back to the place of forgiveness and grace.
I need You, need Your help. I can't do this myself. You're the only one who can undo what I've become. I focused on the score, but I could never win. Trying to ignore, a life of hiding my sin. To label me a hypocrite would be only scratching the surface of who I've been known to be. Turn me around, pick me up. Undo what I've become. Bring me back to the place of forgiveness and grace. I need You, need Your help I can't do this myself. You're the only one who can Undo What I've become. Make every step, lead me back to the sovereign way that You, Turn me around pick me up Undo what I've become. Bring me back to the place of forgiveness and grace. I need You, need Your help I can't do this myself. You're the only one who can Undo What I've become.

DESPERATE

Desperate, desperate.
You're reaching out, and no one hears you cry.
You're freaking out again. 'Cause all your fears remind you, another dream has come undone.
You feel so small and lost like you're the only one.
You wanna scream 'cause you're Desperate.
You want somebody, just anybody to lay their hands on your soul tonight.
You want a reason to keep believin' that someday you're gonna see the light.
You're in the dark. There's no one left to call.
And sleep's your only friend.
But even sleep, can't hide you from all those tears, and all the pain and all the days, you wasted pushin' them away. It's your life, it's time you face it.
You want somebody, just anybody to lay their hands on your soul tonight.

Scattegories

Use the 1st letter of your name to answer each of the following. They have to be real places, names, things...nothing made up! You CAN NOT use your name for the boy/girl name question.

WHAT IS YOUR NAME: Amy
BOYS NAME: Archie
4 LETTER WORD: Aunt
GIRL NAME: Azuka
OCCUPATION: Astronaunt
A COLOR: Aqua
SOMETHING YOU WEAR: Armour
BEVERAGE: Apple juice
FOOD : Artichokes
SOMETHING FOUND IN A BATHROOM : Aspirin
A PLACE : Acropolis
REASON FOR BEING LATE: Accident
SOMETHING YOU SHOUT: Arrivederci!!

Halloween memories

What was your favorite costume you wore as a kid? I also, just like my big sis don't recall much about Halloween costumes. I only remember one. In the fourth grade, for my costume I was to be an African Ameriacan person. I only recall having Hershy's chocolate powder and was supposed to rub it on my skin. For some reason, we were changing into our costumes at school, and I recall rubbing the cocoa onto my arms and face and it was not turning my skin brown. My fourth grade mind got nervous and so I decided to add water to form a paste so I could spread it on. Well when the costume parade began, the paste had dried and began to crack and fall off. I bet EVERYONE wished that they had my costume.

What is your favorite Halloween candy? I will have to go with the plain old boring Snickers, but how can you go wrong with a Snickers? Unless you are allergic to peanuts and go into anaphylactic shock.

Do you have a Halloween tradition?The only tradition we have around here is handing out candy to strangers that come to our door and say "Trick or Treat."

Have you ever played a trick instead of giving a treat? Uh, no.

I Boo (at least three people): Ali, Carrie and nobody else reads my blog so that will be it.(not to leave anyone out....if you are reading this, consider yourself tagged!)

Donny does not disappoint part 2

After the show we along with about twenty others were able to go to a private area and meet the two of them and have pictures taken. When I got up to Donny I quickly approached him and gave him a big hug. He said "Hey, I remember you. Thanks for all of your help." He then autographed the picture of him that I had of him. He wrote: To Amy Love Donny Osmond. Then down at the bottom of the picture he drew an arrow pointing to his shoe and wrote "HELP!". He was so cute and so charming so I must say that I was most certainly not disappointed. In my world of entertainers Donny Osmond RULES!!!!

One last comment. I want to thank my Husband Ed for giving me the gift of a lifetime, a dream come true. Finally meeting my heart throb of nearly forty years. It takes a special man to take his wife to a show and pay a considerable amount of money to watch her cry for another man. I love you Ed.

Donny does not disappoint

For nearly 40 years I have been a huge Donny Osmond fan. As a little girl I would sit on the floor in my bedroom and play his records over and over. Just imagining that he was singing those words to me. As years have gone by I have continued my adoration for him, and it has turned into not only being a fan because he is incredibly blessed in the physical appearance department, or his ability to make a young girls heart melt. I also truly feel like he has an incredible gift in his ability to sing. So anyway... This week I had the chance to go to Las Vegas to see him and Marie in concert. I was so fortunate to be able to purchase tickets that put me on the very front row. At the time I bought the tickets I had no idea that in buying that front row seat it also would enable me to meet him and Marie following the show. Well that was exciting and welcomed news to find that out. However upon hearing that news I became a little anxious because after all of these years I had some pretty high expectations for Donny, I began to worry that in some way he may disappoint me and not live up to my expectations. Well, no more need to worry. When the show began, they came out onto the stage, I began to cry. Just like one of those teeny boppers he knew once upon a time. Apparently my being front and center, the tears of a forty-two year old woman drew their attention. Mind you I did not cry in order to get his attention. I was just over come with emotion when I finally saw him. Well, he was so sweet he walked right over to the edge of the stage, stood right in front of me and winked with a big smile, all for me. Through out the show he came back over to me numerous times. At one point he was doing a dance routine while singing a duet with Marie. It was pretty vigorous and he was right in front of me. I looked up and noticed that one of the buttons in the middle of his shirt had come un-buttoned. I pointed it out to him and he looked down and mouthed the words thanks. He fixed the button. Next thing you know he comes up in front of me and sticks his right foot forward showing me that his lace had come undone. Well, I am not the quickest thinker in all of the world so all I did was place my hand upon his shoe and run my hand down the shoe. He just smiles his glorious perfect smile and went back to his dance routine. Just a minute later he came over, put his shoe back in front of me, bend down some and asked me if I would tie his shoe. Well, what could I do? I tied his shoe with my hands shaking so much I am surprised the laces stayed together. But they did and he smiled, winked and continued on. During the rest of the show he came over knelt down in front of me while he sang to me, tousled my hair, touched the end of my nose and reached out to grab my hand at least 5 times. He also (unintentionally) splashed me with sweat which I was thrilled with, and the other ladies at the table were very envious of. Also at the beginning of the show when they first came out after Donny stood in front of me as I cried, he and Marie switched sides of the stage. She then came over and bent down to squeeze my arm and say "You are so Cute." So that was the concert part of the show.

Breathe

You can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button, girl.
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe... just breathe, Oh breathe, just breathe

COME TO ME

FOR ALI

I will always love you no matter what
No matter where you go or what you do
And knowing you You're gonna have to do things you're own way
And that's okay So be free, spread your wings And promise me just one thing...
If you ever need a place to cry, Baby come to me Come to me
I've always known that you were born to fly
But you can come to me
If the world breaks your heart
No matter where on Earth you are
You can come to me
Don't walk around with the world on you're shoulders
And you're highest hopes laying on the ground
I know you think you've gotta try to be my hero
But don't you know the stars you wish upon they fall its true
But I still believe in you
If you ever need a place to cry, Baby come to me Come to me
I've always known that you were born to fly
But you can come to me If the world breaks your heart
No matter where on Earth you are,You can come to me
And the seven sea's you sail
All the winding road you're on
Leave you lost and feeling all alone
Let my heart be your beacon home
If you ever need a place to cry, Baby come to me Come to me
I've always known that you were born to fly
But you can come to me
When the world breaks your heart
No matter where on Earth you are You can come to me

Things Positive

Thought for the week:
In what ways can I challenge myself to be who I have always wanted to be?

When was the last time that I challenged myself to go beyond my limits?
What is one thing I will commit to doing this week that will be a positive challenge?

Ideas.....
Exercise, create, read, reflect, organize, write, clean, forgive, listen, pray, laugh.

Things positive

Thought for the week: How much richer would my life be if I were truly my own best friend?

How to get there.... Be compassionate, listen to my inner voice, be kind and sensitive to the mix of feelings that I have during the week. Be grateful for all of the good and positive things that I do. Be forgiving when I don't feel like I have measured up to my own expectations. Interject some humor. Have fun! Love myself.



Three sisters

Debbie: The sister that shared so much as we grew up together. We have memories that children should not have. Grown women should not have those memories. Back then she had strength beyond my imagination, and she needed it. She spent time in her own hell, and she came back with even more strength than she left with. Today she is an incredible woman. An example for me. She is the eternal optimist. Loving, and kind. ALWAYS there and has never said no to helping anyone. She pours out support to me. I have too many I'm sorrys to say. Too much forgiveness to ask of her. Where to begin?

Carrie: Carrie was the little sister that I wanted to take care of. I wanted that little girl to know that she was loved. When she was three or four I would rock her in the rocking chair and stroke her face, then tell her that I loved her. Today my thought is that she came through it the best of all of us. Maybe she has just been able to recover better. Maybe she is just putting on a show for all of us. No, I know she has her own pain. Today though, she is strong. She has refused to let things beat her down. She looks forward, and not to the past. She is level headed and a straight shooter. She will tell you how she sees things. Always with love and kindness, with the very best intent but she doesn't sugar coat it. That little sister has taught me so much and continues to teach me.

Arin: The youngest sister. She grew up with my Ali. She is always asking if she can do anything for me. She is talented in areas that I can not even dabble in. She gives and gives. She has been through her share of pain and sadness. Yet she always asks can she do anything for me? I seem to turn to her for prayer, she will always eagerly offer that prayer for me. I want to give back to her and see her with a look of genuine happiness on her face. Another little girl that I feel the need to love. She will be educated and wise. She will be loved. It is on its way to find her.

Testing the waters

This was my very first entry on my blog. I did it a day or so ago. Then I went back into my blog to try to customize the layout and everything. Somehow during that, I lost this post. Well today I have found it again. So here it is. My first entry, only now it is second.

Testing the waters I have come to the place in my life where I need to make some huge changes within myself. Purely for self preservation. I need to be strong for me. I can not allow other people or situations that are beyond my control paralyze me with fear and stop me in my tracks. I must move forward and learn to let go of some of the past. I need to look deep within myself to find the way out. I have an awesome support system, especially with my sister Debbie. Most of this though I must figure out and do alone. So for now I am testing the waters.

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